Blocked
20th June 2024
Eve, this is Esu. You are overthinking. You are even messing around with the situation when I went to India while Mary Magdalen had to go to France and raise our daughter alone.
(Eve. I seem to be totally transparent)
Esu, don’t send me back into these thoughts again (I really wasn’t amused that he caught me, maybe this is why I raised a sort of counter attack) But looking into the details, it seems to me that you broke the law of creation, right. You went to India, married again and raised 5 kids. I’m still empathically stuck in the pattern of the abandoned one – because this is what it breaks down to – the waiting one – who has to live by the crumbs. Working these things out, this would be a long working things out.
Eve, presently I cannot say more than „I was guilty“ in respect to the common law. But the bloodline survived, so it was right to act like this, in the same way that Adam of Eve shared his plasma with as many women as possible, to leave a maximum offspring. At least, I created just 5 more.
Esu, I cannot believe that we are having this discussion. This material world with all this „invalid“ emotion seems to break my neck. Maybe I’m just too worn out, but currently I cannot stand this discussion. I should better get outside and cut my roses back.
Wait, Eve. I see it’s the way harder part to make a basic service in the material world than to be a commander of a fleet. I did not intend to hurt you by this unlucky comment.
Well, there is an idea of an answer now, why I have been procrastinating the painting for months. Not sure still, if I will even do it. „Esu in India“.
Now, in India nobody knew about my history. I was – in their eyes – an unmarried man with no reason for not becoming married. It was like a form of rebirth. And raising own children in the truth of the divine laws was a contribution recommedable for a man in the mid thirties. So, finally the greater part of my life in a human body took place in India, where I left my body after 101 turns around the sun, in Srinagar, Kashmir, near the Dal lake. I plead you to raise forgiveness – of course a marriage is always for creating new life. In my case, 4 sons and 1 daughter.
Esu, speaking straight, you had 6 children with 2 wives. I will remember that when meeting the next passage in a PJ, praising the laws of creation as not to be compromised. I’m not yet in the position to speak other than bitterly about Esu in India, even if you had your romantic highlight there. I conclude that cosmic consorts are overestimated, the magic at least. You may call me a drama queen now, I do my best to raise understanding, as always. I just believed in love and faith. I just spent 30 years married to a covert narcissist and in the end all turned out to be an illusion.
Could all of this not just be a beautiful illusion?
You deserve the best of the best and a wonderful adamic project remaining unspoiled in the golden age to come. And before a retreat to make a clean slate, maybe with Daddy Adama, how about that?
Sounds fine. Sorry when I gave you an uncomfortable time, probably not my best day today. Maybe I just had to say what I said.
Will you now do the painting? Your friend will be in great joy.
I’ll try at least.
Part 2
Is there cosmic narcissism?
CM, I have to ask you this question, as I’m chasing things back to their origin.
Eve, my beloved one, this is CM. The phenomenon you mean belongs to the dark side and therefore yes, there is. It has brought this civilization to the brink of destruction. It’s about misuse of mercy and unconditional love, mistreating the laws of creation, spoiling the masterpiece of divine mind.
It’s the counterplayer of the light/awareness and adoring the cosmic self divine with all attributes, however, when the limits are not clearly defined and held high, this can Athen lead to self abandonment and loss of selfworth.
CM, in regard of the people who do self surrections on this planet, like Dharma, e.G. – why did you bring her so brutally to her limits? I mean, we cannot find the slightest form of work-life balance here.
Eve, anyone on a self surrection does not come to have a work-life balance. The aim is going to the limit to reach the highest possible result of the mission.
But CM, even if we are on a self surrection, you are still a human being and subject to emotions which might suck your strength. You are just a human being down here.
I’m glad you remember this point. When Esu went to India (Eve, thinking: oh noooooo! Not again this topic) – in his human view it was the best go to India alone and to distract the followers from the „holy grail“. The holy grail of divine seed was of such importance and weight to put any demands of the human flesh behind. He could not take Mary Magdalen to India with him!
Ok, CM, so long, so good. But he had married her. And then, he married another woman in India and raised a family. Tell me, who divorced him before?
Eve, now you put me chess mate. And we return to being human and the failures connected with that.
I’ll remind you of that, next time you lift up your finger, pointing on following the law of creation.
Esu’s confession
Part 3
23rd June 2024
Tonight I sat down a while on my garden bench near my horse paddock. It was quite proud of myself, as I had managed to paint the background of the painting I intend to give to my friend as a gift.
After a while the energetic version of Esu appeared and took a seat at my left side.
„Eve, I need to make something clear“, he commenced. „It’s about that India story“.
„Ah, ok“, I answer with mixed feelings.
„So, then, to make complicated emotional stuff more clear: after my crucifixion my greatest concern was to have Mary Magdalen in safety. At that point I did not even know for certain if the pregnancy had manifested. It was a „maybe“. And, you know, India was just an option for me. I did not come off the cross to say „Hey, ok, let’s go to India“. The main thing was to make a long distance from the place my haters had me tortured. CM was no longer the double incarnation in my body, so I was quite free to make a choice. My idea was about teaching, so that my remaining life span would not be wasted.
When I finally reached Kashmir – afoot of the Himalaya – I thought that it was a nice place with a clean, lightful energy. This was years after my departure from Israel. And I was not actively looking for a woman. When I got more well known one of my followers told me about his daughter and how she would never get married, as he could not afford to pay for it. She was a beautiful, intelligent young woman and also touched by the teachings of Christ. And I thought I might love to be a father of children. So it happened that we married after I found, it was a better contribution to the outcome than not doing so. We had 4 sons and 1 daughter and a quiet life of harmony. Yes, I broke the law of creation and I’m guilty in this concern. I beg you from my deepest heart to forgive me and also that I did not adress it earlier and tried to avoid the topic.“
The rest of this happening was of more private nature, Adama showed up and also Aylan, the one of my kids that was raised in Telos, a grown up young pilot of the silver fleet, plus finally CM alias Q, making plans and discussing the time after the second coming.
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I would never have published that story, if Esu had not turned to me asking for it.
Somehow important to put the cards on the table and make a clean slate, as new buildings have to be built upon a plain and even ground.
Source: en.christ-michael.net
